October 19, 2018
As I write this it is 468 days, 1 hour, and 7 mins since I received the worse phone call of my life. Through tears she screamed “Lauren is dead”. Those words hit me like nothing I had ever experienced Read more…
October 5, 2018
I am sorry honey, there is nothing I can do. This week’s image is from one of my favorite pictorialist photographers. His name is Henry Peach Robinson and he was a strong proponent of composite photography, long before there was Read more…
September 28, 2018
I remember with startling clarity the feeling of relief that would slowly flow over me when Lauren went to a residential treatment program. It provided an array of feelings and thoughts. The momentary restbite from the constant chaos, turmoil and Read more…
September 21, 2018
“No Mom, you don’t understand, my mind is going a million miles an hour in a million different directions and I can’t stop it.” That is what Lauren said to her mom after Nereida had told her how well she Read more…
September 14, 2018
In it I see so much of my daughters pain. The past few nights I have had difficulty sleeping. I often wake around 1 AM and do not get back to sleep. Lots of things going on, drinking to much Read more…
September 7, 2018
I remember the first day we visited Lauren while she was at a residential program for eating disorders in Massachusetts. It was the evening of the day of her intake. We were crammed into a small corner of the Read more…
August 24, 2018
Fear is a very powerful thing. At its best it triggers our God designed safety and survival instincts. The fight or flight reaction. I experienced this the other night while walking our dog, “Lola”. She was acting a little weird, Read more…
August 3, 2018
The day we drove Lauren to enter a program for eating disorders at Walden Behavioral Health felt dark and heavy. I knew it was the right thing to do, but I was profoundly heavy in heart by what I knew Read more…
July 13, 2018
Early in our experience with our daughter Lauren, we made three decisions that I believe were important, helpful and right. Decisions, that now, during our loss afford us peace. Of course, every family must make their own choices regarding how Read more…
July 6, 2018
One year ago today I started my day just like every other day. I checked in on my daughter. She was sleeping so I did not disturb her and left a note I had written her on her pillow . Read more…
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